Thursday, April 27, 2006

Some details

I'm having a bit of trouble getting up a regular practice of writing this blog, probably in part because I am in a bit of a crisis of submission, I am a switch, dominant with submissive females (and in the past to submissive males) and submissive to my Master. I don't think that women are 'less' than men, I have submitted to women in the past and enjoyed it, and I have dominated men in the past but enjoyed it less, mentally, I enjoyed it, I enjoyed the power, but not sexually, it wasn't a turn on for me.

I suppose as a Libra, I have trouble submitting when I feel a lack of justice, when something isn't fair or when my Master isn't behaving how I think he should behave (not setting a proper example, getting angry, or petty) it does not bring out the best in me. I've been getting back into my routine since coming back from our little 'vacation' which was a bit work-centered but not heavily.

I've become extremely cautious about what I write in public, because an image can be tied down to my writings, the image in my bdsm porn site. I have to be cautious for my safety, for my Master's job, for my family (to a lesser degree, they are unlikely to end up on a porn site or make the connection) and also to retain a level of privacy that my Master requires regarding our activities, and to provide for the privacy of those that I play with.

So there is a question of what to write and what will be of interest to others. Right now I am thinking that it could stimulate the creative impulse to write, so I can work on the next chapters of the sex journal, but I don't want to release too much of that here, in public. I am willing to put it in the member's only sections of my site but anywhere else would be foolhardy.

To recount daily activities?
Thoughts on slavehood or submission?
Past experiences? Not much, not often.
Recent experiences?
Ideals and dreams?
Jaded perspectives on the lifestyle?